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Monday, September 29
is that yr opinion of me?
it that wat u think of me?
u keep it under wraps
holding a mask over yr face
as if a snake hiding behind a flower
waiting for that right moment to strike without regrets
do i have a second chance?
i dun think so
yr impression of me is fixed
it will never change
so why should i still have to stay in that happy mode
and help u with everything u want?
or should i jus throw my back on all my worries
and be the worst that i could become?
i tot u have changed
i tot my opinion has changed in yr mind
apparently not
it only seems to get worse
i feel angry
i feel sad
i feel like tearing
the most of all
i dun noe how i feel
zhen slammed at 07:42
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Sunday, September 21
an adventure in the virtual world...
i went to the irc the other way. typed so stupid thing in the main channel then suddenly have 7 ppl whu wan to talk to me.
all around 19 and out of the 6 guys there, 5 r interested in sex alone.
grow up! u dun go to irc and find ppl to have one night stand or cyber sex!
then i did i stupid thing and gave my hp no to this guy.he seems quite nice at that time. but i told him tt i wan to keep this 'friendship' strictly to the com alone. he seems to understand.
but now he keep harrassing me with his messages!!!
BITCH!
zhen slammed at 07:43
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Monday, September 15
pls feel free to comment
why is it always that a couple must have a guy and a girl?
why even if the couple is of the same sex, there will be one more like a 'guy' and the other more like a 'girl'?
zhen slammed at 02:44
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Saturday, September 13
she is good!
Both are convinced
that a sudden surge of emotion bound them together.
Beautiful is such a certainty,
but uncertainty is more beautiful.
Because they didn't know each other earlier, they suppose that
nothing was happening between them.
What of the streets, stairways and corridors
where they could have passed each other long ago?
I'd like to ask them
whether they remember-- perhaps in a revolving door
ever being face to face?
an "excuse me" in a crowd
or a voice "wrong number" in the receiver.
But I know their answer:
no, they don't remember.
They'd be greatly astonished
to learn that for a long time
chance had been playing with them.
Not yet wholly ready
to transform into fate for them
it approached them, then backed off,
stood in their way
and, suppressing a giggle,
jumped to the side. There were signs, signals:
but what of it if they were illegible.
Perhaps three years ago,
or last Tuesday
did a certain leaflet fly
from shoulder to shoulder?
There was something lost and picked up.
Who knows but what it was a ball
in the bushes of childhood.
There were doorknobs and bells
on which earlier
touch piled on touch.
Bags beside each other in the luggage room.
Perhaps they had the same dream on a certain night,
suddenly erased after waking.
Every beginning
is but a continuation,
and the book of events
is never more than half open.
zhen slammed at 09:47
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Thursday, September 11
my thoughts..
Do u believe in love at first sight,
if u do then we might be right.
If two ppl meet and fall in love,
they will soar together forever like doves.
If two ppl meet and no s parks are seen,
everything that happen between them will jus be a scene.
If two ppl meet and only one commit,
it will be a pain that both must submit.
Everyone is wondering around like a person without their shadow,
as without their other half their lives will always be that narrow.
Yet two ppl can pass each by each other and never say hi,
but u can never be sure they will say bye.
As uncertainty is a beauty on its own to be pondered,
a chance meeting will bloom a flower.
if that day is ever to be,
let the two parallel lines be u and me.
Wat r u doing out there in the world now?
Give me a shout and turn my head around...
Yet wait for the correct moment to step in,
dun be too eager to leave my heart weak and caved in..
by: me
zhen slammed at 11:48
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Wednesday, September 10
where and when?
where can a person feel lonely?
when does these feelings hit us?
it is due to the ppl around us?
does the presence of ppl around us makes us immune to the feeling?
or does the presence of ppl makes the feeling of loneliness more pronounced?
y do i feel lonely?
y does this lonely feeling makes me feel looney?
as if i dun belong on this world?
y can i only view the world from my angle?
do ppl know of my loneliness?
or do i keep it hidden?
my house is full of sounds..
i hear noises..
i hear voices..
yet i feel nothing.
nothing
yet this huge sense of loneliness really overcomes me..
is it me asking for too much?
or i being satisified with the little i have?
please tell me..
zhen slammed at 13:49
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studies..
study
i wake up and see the table of books
y do we need to study?
how is it going to help me in the future?
i cannot stand the sight of books
yet i have to study them
any tinge of initial interest in the subjects r blown with the wind..
ppl have told me that they have completed 2 1/2 chapters of geog
and they tell me they still feel stressed that they cannot finish
then wat am i doing here typing my stresses and worries
i have not even completed one chapter!!
maybe i should really flunk my prelims and jus go and any other jc
maybe i am panaroid
but give me a matchstick and i will burn the papers
haha
hope that day will never come
i hope so too..
zhen slammed at 13:48
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Tuesday, September 9
y?
is is true that no man is an island?
y is it that ppl can change overnight?
y is it ppl can go back on their words without even realising so?
y is it that some ppl must bear the pain for the happiness of another?
y did u change?
y am i given the cold shoulder?
u said u feel weird at times..
u said u feel moody at times..
u said u treasure this friendship..
when is this
weird
moody
phase of yrs going to go away?
i await for that day..
zhen slammed at 09:50
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