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Sunday, December 28

anything but ordinary


Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love
Is it enough to breathe
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby








i wan to be anything but ordinary.
but the question is how?
act stupid?
it is stupid
be the best in studies?
do i even have the brains?
show tt i display leadership qualites?
do i even have them?



no matter wat jc i go to i jus wan to lead a life there and be
ANYTHING BUT ORDINARY


zhen slammed at 17:38

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Sunday, December 21

20/11/03

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie.
A fantasy we create about
people and places as we'd like them to be.
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding,
and it's that man you fought with
this morning,
the same one you're going to make love with tonight.
That's truth,
that's love


An extract from Charlene's I've Never Been to Me






















am i changing? am i coping with the changes around me? can u ppl out there tell me how have u changed to make or allow me to change with u. ya i am not tt xiao sa to leave everything behind me with every change ppl round me make.


jus....oblige me


zhen slammed at 09:39

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Monday, December 15

14/11/03

"I've come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."


i am invincible. i can do anything i set my mind to. i can and i will.

i feel so stupid now. bluffing myself. it is 3am and i am typign this when i should either be sleeping or studying geog. ppl change. that i have no control over. wat i have is the reactions i have to their changes. i embrace change. change and let me see the true u...


I AM SELF-DILLUSIONAL NOW!!!!



















hope. love. peace. kindness. warmth. comfort. friends. kinship. joy. sleep.

r they all fake?


zhen slammed at 17:39

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