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Tuesday, July 6
it was only on damn freaking plate of chicken cutlet!!!f*** cos of it i got constipation. sometimes i really think is my body. if i dun drink enough water then constipation also. if i eat too much meat then constipation. wadever lah..constipation, to me, is like the one of the worst thing which can happen to me. ppl say yr health condition or state sometimes is likda of similar to yr parents. so my dad, the always healthy person but when the virus comes to him it will be a full blown one. it can result in him lyign in bed for one or even two days. my mum is the problematic one. she used to suffer from gastric problems. it seems like she cannot eat food tt r too oily, too salty, too sugar..ya lah all the too much in any kind of thing. her gastric cases used to be be quite frequent, like once a wk which can result in her havign no strength at all, lying in bed and vomiting.but sicne she started taking up tai ji lesson its frequency have decreased greatly. but i think it has left an deep impression on me. i have seen wat she has gone thur those days when her gastric pains will consume her and sapping all her energy, and it could even happen like once in 2 days or more...then i made myself promise not to let this kind of things happen to me i wan to lead a healthy life and accomplish things with my life, not to allow sickness to engulf my life. but for ppl whu r closer to me will notice tt i have been havign headaches and gastric pains quite often these few days. i admit i have been skippign meals. i am not tryign to lose weight. i jus simply sleep past my meal times and when i wake up i dun have the appetite to eat. i have heard of ppl sayign tt maybe u dun feel the effects of the small things u do now but u will feel it in the future. i sure hope not. at least i damn well is trying to make them not happen.
hahaha today i came to sch at 750 amd din see any of our class ppl so i joined my snr whu is in the arts fac. we started talkign abt my common test and her block test. i was telling her how i will fail both my sciences. then she told her abt wat happened to her last yr for her common test. she got 3 Os which is like from 41-50 marks and ask e whther i can beat or match tt..believe me i think i can..
i think i really dunno how to delegate tasks. either tt or i jus am shoulderign too much things on myself. ok, i shall not talk abt table tennis cos till now there is not much things to be done regardign tt yet. i dun mind the responsiblities which comes with everything tt needs to be done, but i must really learn to let other ppl do some things. i guess it has never crossed my mind till manling told me today. still have things to learn along the way.
i guess ppl generally agree that everyoen wears a mask to every single occasion. lets say sch, soem ppl dun wan to show wat they r truly feeling. so they remain quiet in sch or jus laugh along or allow ppl to laugh at themselves to conceal the hurt tt they feel. btu wat is under the mask? does the person himself know and understand the true person under all the layers of plastic used?do they really noe wat make him tick? makes him flare up in ager which can burn away all the masks used showing him true self? i dun deny tt ppl used masks to prevent themselves get hurt. i have seen a fren whu laid her heart on the line, hoping tt the guy will see it and appreciate it, only to find it being trampled upon without a backwards glance. like telling secrets to frens, u let yr fren into u, lettign them noe another part of u which other ppl dun, and if they betray u, the hurt u feel is really unable to be describe. u start to question yrself, y u r so stupid to allow this person to get close to u and allow yrself to trust. the world lacks trust. only in times of distrust will ppl conceal themselves. the world lacks love. the world lacks pain so as to ensure greater ones get thur without leavign more than a healable scar on our hearts, it lacks pain as only thur pain will we be able to understand ourselves better in a new dimension.
i challenge everyone to find out whu their true self really is. take risks at time, the pain maybe imminent but the joy in knowing tt u have made the connection with another person is immense...
zhen slammed at 23:30
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