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Tuesday, October 19

i seriously think i should get down and think abt wat i really wan in life. or rather maybe not life as it is such a long term word. maybe in the next 5 yrs or so? firstly is to of cos think of whether i can promote or not. had this bit of conversation jus now with my sis. she say she dun mind gg to the same sch or same standard as me. haha maybe it is her whu dun mind cos i mind a whole big deal. maybe it is my pride. it si nto true to say tt u will have no pride left if u get retained. yes u will be viewed in a different light as compared to the other j1s. tt is a fact. but if u view it from a different angle, even if they allow u to promote with u having the bare minimum, will u be able to do well in yr block test, or even yr prelims and A lvls? i dunno. my teacher set my mind thinking of whether do i wan to promote or not. ya u may think it is dumb. whu dun wan to be promoted. but then wats the pt of promoting then failing everythign and in the end not be able to get into a university? it is better to study j1 again and get yr foundation right then go into more indept stuff?

i am nto as great ot as clever as i think i am. come to think of it i was really dumb in the past. maybe i jus had some little bit of smartness or wadever u call it when i was young. then made it into a gd sec sch. come to think of it my mum was right after all. i was in a sec sch where ppl r expected to make it into the top 5 jcs. come on ppl there or at least my batch have like 60-70% of the cohort scoring less than 10 for the O lvls. and i am ya of cos the bottom 30% or so. did i study for my O lvls? frankly i studied lesser for tt than my prelims. wadever no pt crying over spilt milk now. and also no pt crying over spilt milk for my promos.

i think it is during critical times where u can really see ppl coming tog in both mind and spirit. feeling kinda of touched when ppl which u dun really meet up or talk to in sch come and ask u how did u do for yr promos. ok they r concerned but then it is stil nice to feel this way. ok i have started to blabber. shall stop for now. hahahah wadever man. i dun really care.


zhen slammed at 20:58

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