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Thursday, January 27
today in a summary:
1. i nearly kissed sarah. haha
2. i actually could put up a gd fight against my coach. shall strive on.
3. i asked my junior to go study and to stop slping in lects. haha does it sound like advise for me?
4. i stayed back in sch till 830 to do work. quite fun really.
5. i ran ard the sch track in the dark. my stamina sucks
6. i laid on the track looking at the night sky. smth i wanted to do for a long time.
7. today's night sky is v nice. alot of stars. will try to do it again.
8. i managed to come home in one piece, reaching home at 9.40pm. tired...
9. my left shoulder is v sore. cannot even move my arm without my shoulder being freaking pain. i hate my shoulder now
10. my nose is blocked and leaking at times. bring more tissue for me...
smth for me or jus abt everyone to think abt...Do u only have a one-single personality tat u show to everyone n anyone (includes relatives, family, frens whatever)? or do u appear to b more wild when in certain pple's company n more reserved in other's? is tat split personality or is tat jus weird?
i think i do
zhen slammed at 23:11
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Wednesday, January 26
got thsi from somewhere. guess it can be applied to me. (at least i din say like "char asked me to blog...")
Question: In a gathering with pple u arent close to, when they make lame jokes which u dun tink its funny, do u try to force a smile n laugh with e rest of e gang or do u jus b urself n keep a straight face which i feel will embarass e joker (no dun get me wrong, i refer to e guy who's making e lame joke)?
e thing is i dunno how to react to this type of situation... hope i'm not rude if i keep a straight face n worse, roll my eyes at him.
Question: Do u only have a one-single personality tat u show to everyone n anyone (includes relatives, family, frens whatever)? or do u appear to b more wild when in certain pple's company n more reserved in other's? is tat split personality or is tat jus weird?
zhen slammed at 22:57
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Sunday, January 16
to u
i tot parents r supposed to support their children in watever things which they wan to do. there i was trying to tell u tt i wna to do psychology in uni. and u so cleverly jus interrupted my talking by telling me tt i am nto cut for it, am nto suiter for it and is not gg to excel in it. cant u jus get me a few more seconds fro me to finish wat i was gg to say be4 speaking from yr freaking mind. and wat a damn freaking dumb reason u can give me which says tt i am nto the kind of ppl to take up and do it. i cannot even undestand how the wat children (my freaking ass sisters) thinks and hence am nto cut out for it. get a damn freaking life. u cant even handle yr life. u r out alomst evey evening engrossed in yr taiji and stuff and u dun even consider or gave a freaking damn abt my opinions. fine u can jus pay the price with the consequences on my sisters. told u nto to put my sis iin this sch and u refuse to listen prefering to listen to yr fren instead and now wat happened? she keep on gg out and of course neglecting her studies except when u guys r ard to let u see she is studying. and it is onlywat the 2nd wk of sch. fine i dun care. even if i really fail at wat i wna to do in life at least i wna to have a go at it. dun jus shut me away from it cos of yr stupid tots. crap. shit . tots. even if fail i wan to fail trying nto fail but not even getting a try at it. and when i raised my voice in protest of wat u said u jus have to rub it in by saying tt i cannot even handle myself or understand myself or yrself and hence hwo can i have the freaking right to go and try to understand other ppl. crap. freaking shit. can u get yr freaking facts correct. i dun wan to be held back from wat i wan to do jus becos i dun haev the financial means to achieve it. so wat i am the eldest? yaya i know the both of u r the youngest in yr familes and maybe r jus treated differently but can u jus spare a tot for me. can u jsu think on the freaking postive side for once tt i will succeed in watever i do. yes i knwo tt i am lazy at times and i am all the abd things which u see but damn it cant u jsu see past it for once. everythign i do u will only see the bad side. if i said i go to bath and u will coem and ask me how many days have i not bathed. i am gg to 18 soon. i am nto asking much. jus give me yr support and i will try my best to do the rest. i dunno y am i feeling tt my eyes r getting abit heavy nto from slp. wadever. i dunno if u guys can understand wat the hell is in this page. it is a momnent of frustration. the irony of growing up. ya the passage says tt teenagers tend to be lead my society to pull away from their parents when they most need them. i think it is the aprents themselves whu do thinsg wo thinkign of how their children will care and in a way cause the rift. yes we r in the blame but fuck it i dun wan to think anymore.
zhen slammed at 02:14
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Monday, January 10
...as dead as can be...
DEAD
[certified dead]
zhen slammed at 21:53
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Monday, January 3
i'm blue da ba di da ba da
da ba di da ba da
da ba de da ba da
blue
zhen slammed at 18:11
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Sunday, January 2
i saw him the other day.
think he saw me too.
i had to force myself not to turn back to make sure tt it is him.
suddenly memories came back.
all the gd and the bad even the v bad.
my heart thumped faster.
we got on the same train.
but think he dropped off at the next stop.
i dun see him after when i walked thur the whole train.
guess i dun care anymore
zhen slammed at 16:02
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